Absence

Heyo! 
I disappeared for a while for a personal leave because things weren't really going too well for me. Mentally, I felt like I was worthless and nothing was going to happen for me. Physically, I'm worn out and I'm not doing too good. I've been sick on and off and allergies have done me in so much. I've been waiting for a good time to write this post. It's been sitting in my drafts for about four months and I just decided to rewrite it and inform you on what life has been like for me.
So it's been about ten WHOLE months since I posted. In those ten months I went to Warped Tour, saw 5 Seconds of Summer and One Direction, turned seventeen, started school in a new state with new people, made new friends without replacing my old ones and went to a ton of concerts. Living in Massachusetts leaves me with the great advantage of living right around the corner from a venue called the Palladium in Worcester. Among the last few months I applied at a lot of places and finally got a job at a fast food chain that's well known. I had to ditch my colored hair, which was my favorite aspect of myself. 
Through these ten months I have changed a lot. I'm trying to find who I truly am and trying to mentally build myself up and realize my flaws really don't define me. Meeting Damon Fizzy at Warped Tour really helped me realize that I am appreciated by the people I look up to and I don't want to fail someone by doing anything stupid with my life. Between YouTube and music I don't really know where I would be at this point. I don't think I would be dead but I wouldn't be in a great mental state. It really took so much to build me up where I am right now. Months ago I thought writing this would be super tough but now that I am actually writing it, it's so easy.
Soon I will start making videos on YouTube and I will broadcast myself to the people of the internet without a single second thought.

Much love to anyone who actually takes time to read this
xo Angelica

Warped Tour 2014

In just a few days I'll be standing inside the Xfinity Center in Mansfield, Massachusetts for Vans Warped Tour. This year will be my second time going and I'm actually insanely excited to be going again. I didn't think I would be able to go because of a fight my dad and I got into over losing a family friend at a show. But in the end, my mom told me she'd give me and my family friend a ride to the show. It's been a stressful few days though thinking about all the things I need to prepare for Warped Tour this year. Last year I had some help from a friends mom and let me tell you, I couldn't thank her anymore for supplying us with everything we needed. 

This year since I'm going with a family friends daughter to the show I've realized it's really difficult to know exactly what you need until the day of Warped or the night before. Last year we brought all of these extra things that we didn't need but in the end I ended up needing something more important than the rest and of course, I left it back at the hotel. This year I know exactly what I'm bringing and limiting everything. 

My list includes:

• Rain poncho (It rains every year at my warped tour for some reason)
• Sanitary wipes for my hands and toilets 
• Sharpies, lots of them.
• My panda onesie to get signed by people
• A possible extra outfit just in case my outfit gets soaked (easy to avoid chaffed legs)
• Sunblock!
• Money (About $200)
• My cellphone 
• My concert vlogging camera (if they let me bring it in!)
• A somewhat decent sized backpack!

This year I refuse to let anything get me down or ruin the mojo I have going so far. Last year I stressed about finding friends and a shitload of friend group drama but this year I absolutely refuse to let anyone bring me down! I'm excited to be at Warped Tour and to be vlogging at Warped Tour this year. It will be my very first YouTube video ever so keep an eye out! (:

Here's a list of the bands I'll be seeing and who I will be meeting!

• Of Mice & Men (Meeting)
• We The Kings (Meeting)
• Mayday Parade
• This Wild Life
• The Summer Set
• Damon Fizzy (YouTuber)
• Bayside (Meeting for my dads ex wife!)
• Modsun

If anyone sees me at Warped Tour, don't be afraid to stop by and say hello! If you don't know what I look like have a creep on my instagram (@tbhangieee) and my twitter (@tbhangieee).

Stay cool and enjoy your day! (: